Drifting Away to Sleep

Well.. It might be a day that I can be proud of, but I'm feeling a bit tired at the moment.

Things have been weird lately, I've been getting more and more sleep but wanting more and more at the same time. I usually only get my updates up between eleven and twelve, sometimes later, but lately, nine to ten have felt late at night to me. I'm not even doing a ton more.. I'm just burning out quicker. It's only been sixteen years and I'm already getting old; technically, I'm only four! So what the hell's going on?

No clue. Don't care. Feeling lethargic and world weary. Were I an elf I'd return whence I came.

I've found something, I like to use a lot of those old words. I like to say "all save this" instead of "all but this." Whence is just a cool word.. try it on your tongue, it just rolls off and makes you feel proper. Or British. Or just stuck up and snobbish. However it makes you feel, it's still a solid word.

Did all I wanted to with today.. felt like it went smoothly. Smiling and laughing and holding myself lightly all day, it's nice. A life of relaxation and productivity, sometimes at the same time. I wonder how I come off to other people.

I wish one of my days would be recorded, then I could go back and watch it and see what I look like on screen, take a step back and observe myself, and just get an idea of what a dork I must seem to be. I wonder if I could hire a couple of judges, toss in Simon Cowell, and see if I could get a ten or a going-to-hollywood with one of my days. I wish there was a scorecard. That'd be cool.

 You know another thing I've been thinking about? The seasons. Especially the way people dress. There's a definite set of summer and winter clothes, specific fall clothes, but in the spring you kinda just skip back and forth because the weather's all of a sudden bipolar. You've got a coat one day and then shorts and a t-shirt the next. This got me optimistic though, because with this way seasons have been kicking up early (October Storm and the early summer days we've been getting sporadically) we might not have torturous daily doubles. It might be early fall weather that won't try and kill half of us.

Oh well.. bye bye guys.

"The one who guards his mouth protects his life; the one who opens his lips invites his own ruin."
Proverbs 13:3

I take risks and would love the opportunity to put my life on the line.. are one of you readers going to get angry with my lack of inhibition and stick a knife in my chest? Stevie says all that he thinks about with this blog. Well, pretty much. Everything that sticks around long enough to be written down. I'm not joking when I say I don't backspace.